Last week, Cole decided that he wanted to put EVERY “Baby Toy” in our house in Miller’s crib. He would bring them to me 1 at a time and ask “Is this a baby toy?”. It was so sweet:). Here is a picture of the finished product…..
*I also have to tell you about a little sign from Miller:
Saturday night was a horrible night for me. I don’t know what hit me, but it came out of nowhere and was totally uncontrollable. I don’t allow myself to have breakdowns very often, but when I do, they are BAD! Cole was staying at Jim & Rhonda’s that night , so since I didn’t have to suck it up for him, I just let it all out! I miss Miller SO much!!! I couldn’t get the image of us at the Hospice house out of my head. The last time I held him, wondering when exactly he passed away, and hoping that he knew exactly how much he was/is loved. Well, during the middle of this breakdown, I was laying in bed and all of a sudden started hearing something in Miller’s nursery. I got out of bed and went in there and the little steering wheel/gear shifter toy was singing “are you driving, are you driving….”. After it quit I stood there and stared at it for a second smiling, and when I turned to walk out it said “Let's drive again soon, bye-bye”! I got back in bed and it did it several more times that night, however, it hasn’t done it since. I just know it was Miller sending me a message that he was okay:)!
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You may have caught me at a moment or it may be because I am so happy you are expecting (although I don't even really know you but through your story, friends and your blog.. and I have posted several "miller" sightings to the FB page) Anyways, you melted me to tears with this one. Happy tears. I have a 4 year old and a 5 month old. Miller became an angel when I was pregnant with my second boy and Miller's memory has never left my heart. I actually remember sitting in Dr Birch's office the day I found out I was pregnant--after having a miscarriage the October before--and looking up to see one of the most beautiful babies I have ever seen. It was Miller's birth announcement (he is on a multi-color blanket and looking oh so cute) I pointed him out to the hubs and immediately connected with him... next thing I new I was following his story through multiple sources, praying along the way for this beautiful baby. I returned for my pregnancy visits throughout the next 8ish months, each time looking at Millers announcement. Anyways, long story long (:)) I feel forever connected with your family on multiple levels. I wish you well with your third pregnancy. Know that my family is praying for you and your family and always looking for "Miller" sightings along the way. God Bless !
chills have just covered my entire body with that story! Meredith, thank you for being so "real"...and sharing these intimate moments with us. Miller consumes my thoughts...literally! Sometimes, I think 'WHY am I SO consumed?!' I'm telling you...the impact this child left on my heart is incredible...and I say this bc I can only begin to imagine the impact on a mother's heart...YOUR heart... that Miller has. Amazing!! the Legacy is Amazing!!! The legacy he made without saying a word...WOW! I'm taken back each time I think of it! Prayers for you ALWAYS!
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